The feeling of emptiness is the worst feeling ever. And ocassionally there would be an overwhelming sadness that sinks in and it just makes me feel so fucking depressed. The thought of not being able to depend on someone and not having him there 24/7 feels like a constant stab in the heart. It's funny how I thought that it's going to be easy and how the reality of it starts slapping me in the face and it's really so much harder than I would have ever imagined. Sometimes I very much want to say I take it all back but I know that I should not and will not.
Pain throws your heart to the ground, love turns the whole thing around.