Friday, July 23, 2010

I want you, beyond poetry.

I am feeling suicidal.
The last week of my self-declared holiday is supposed to filled with coffee-sipping while people-watching, relaxing and not thinking of school. But instead, not only am I feeling so guilt-ridden, I am down with a cold, have a slightly swollen eye and found out that I have an assignment due next wednesday; a day after I arrive back in melb. I need all the well wishes I can get. I have zero courage nor strength to dive into this semester.
Whine and whine and whine. I revel in that I must say.

Signing off with a heavy weight on me,

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

I dreamt of something good last night. And in my dream I was wondering to myself if it was all a dream only to wake up and realise that it was really just a dream. After that, when I see couples on the streets, I only feel 2 things - envy & hatred. Hate the way they behave so loved up it makes my hair stand yet envious at the same time of the love they so openly have for each other.
I want time to go by quickly so that I can look back at this part/point of my life and giggle to myself; at the mistakes I've made & how I overcame it.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Down with a cold.
Oh greatttt.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

I've got a soul but I'm not a soldier.

The night that did not turn out right. I'm sorry guys!!!
I don't know what's with the underline thingy & I can't get rid of it. Hmm...gotta learn to be more IT savvy.
Had a rather spontaneous/go with the flow day with the mother & sissy. I love Saturdays. 1 more Saturday left before heading back to the cold, icy sad place. FML.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Taste me, drink my soul.

My Sunday in pictures.
I don't want my winter break to end.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

We will not grow old.

{Showcasing my barbie that I've had for quite a while}

Caught up with the melb gang at Thompson Plaza (hell far I'd say) in the noon. Had a bit of an adventure with Mel discovering the circle line blah blah bla... Sent Clare off not too long ago as she left for Sydney. I can't describe how I felt. It's a feeling beyond being sad. Seeing how painful it was for her to leave and the heartache that both she & her bf felt pains me as well. It got me thinking of myself. S-s-s-shake it offffff... Had supper with Kel & Jer. Seriously, when you're with boys who are serving the national service, they can go on eternally talking about the things they do and go thru. It was exciting at first to listen to what they've been thru but it got stale after a while and I started spacing out. The thing is, they expect you to be a part of their conversation? Kel was asking me "Why are you so quiet?" and all I could answer him was "What do you expect me to say?" But it was heartwarming nevertheless to see 2 long-time friends relating to one another even after so long.

Hope you've had a great Saturday (Abrupt end)!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle.

{This is my parents in their teenage years. It makes me so envious just looking at it. Love that last through time, knowing that he's the one you'll marry and the person you'll count on for the rest of your life & grow old with. A love that overcomes all circumstances. I thought I've found a love that will never break, a love filled with forgiveness and grace. I've made mistakes,taking the love that I had for granted, but I'm young and am supposed to have allowances for mistakes right? I'm sure my parents, though very much in love, made mistakes to hurt each other along the way. I guess it's through it all that we learn and grow. For some, the mistake makes the love grow stronger. For others, the love falters. Maybe now just isn't the time for us. Maybe someday when we mature more, we'll find that love that we've lost. Maybe, just maybe.}

{This here is my beloved Grandmother who has aged gracefully through the years. How wonderful is it that she still looks almost the same (wrinkles aside) after 40 plus years. I want to be exactly like my grandmother when I'm old. So elegant & graceful.}

I had a wonderfulicious day today. I want everyday to be like that. Cheers to an aussome week ahead for everyone! :D

Friday, July 2, 2010

Got this MBMJ bag for school - Courtesy of dad.

Dad: I'll get this for you as your birthday present. (My birthday is in Dec, btw)
Me: Oookay I'll accept that for now. I'll discuss it with you again when it's nearer to my birthday.