Monday, May 31, 2010

Above is the cause of my misery for the past few days. Burned my weekend researching for anything philosophical relating to the interconnection between power and knowledge. I really wonder if I've made the right choice by majoring in Philosophy & Literature. 60 words down. Just 1440 more words to go. Just.
Ahh 5 more days & it's hot hot hot weather back in Sg. I want to go back so badly, not because I'm homesick but because I feel so unsettled being here.

Anyway, this is for you cherie! Only you will know what's going on with that picture! Teehee.

Friday, May 28, 2010

A series of unfortunate events.

I go through this sick shit of a cycle everyday. It torments me tremendously but I still find myself going back to it. I am this close to a having a mental breakdown.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Philosophical love.

'If love is primarily holistic, then relationships will be in principle lasting and committed, steadfast, and yet at the same time non-possessive, non-jealous, non-exclusive, and non-manipulative. In short - free. '

To love someone is not to set them free, but to set yourself free.


How can I expect myself to pass my 40% PR test when 3/4 of the paper was based on my own assumption and understanding? Howeverrr... considering that I barely had any knowledge of the question whatsoever and managed to write something down for all the questions, I might just slide through. After tomorrow's presentation, I'll be left with that darned philosophy essay and I'm done for this semester! Am aiming to complete it by this weekend (very ambitious!) so that I might be able to head home earlier than expected. That is IF what I just said goes accordingly. I am known for procrastinating so hopefully the possibility of going home earlier will spur me on.

Till then.

Which day are you?

Monday's child is FAIR OF FACE,
Tuesday's child is FULL OF GRACE,
Wednesday's child is full of woe,
Thursday's child has far to go,
Friday's child is loving and giving,
Saturday's child must work for a living,
But the child that's born on the Sabbath day,
Is fair and wise and good and gay.

I'm a Wednesday's child for now for I am so full of woe.

Monday, May 24, 2010

12 more days till tee shirt and shorts!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Friday, May 21, 2010

It's being here, in my room, all by myself where I can hear my own thoughts.
I'm driving myself insane.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Friends,lovers or nothing.

What more do I have to do? What else can I do? I have to constantly shift my focus back to my work. There's this perpetual sick feeling that turns my tummy upside down. I'm so tired from all that is happening. Since the time I came back in April till now I've been on this sick cycle of mind-fuck and there is not a day I feel genuinely joyful. I've lost my optimism along the way. I haven't been able to sleep on so many occasions. I'm quite worn out, really. I hope that all I've done will get thru to you.
Just 3 assignments, 2 presentations and 1 test more and I'm done here for this sem.

There can only be one.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Let love in. Let me in.

This has been my weekend.
Went to the State library for the first time and it is awe inspiring. There is this sense of motivation to actually study in there. First time in my life I went back to uni on a Saturday for a group meeting. So much work up my neck I'm going insane. My only console is that I'll be back in 19 days. Back to deal with things that I have not dealt with while I was back then. Back to make things right. But right now my focus is on getting all my work done. So.stressed.

And because I've been eating out so much...

Till then.

Friday, May 14, 2010

I think of you when I listen to this song,
and the song is on repeat mode.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

"Because you can want and want and want. But if he doesn't want you back, you might as well wish the sky was red."

Sunday, May 9, 2010

I just want to go back so badly right now. It feels as though I'm going through a mental breakdown and I can never feel better. I somehow wish there was a way to make up for whatever I did. Let me get into your heart again. Please.

Friday, May 7, 2010

My sister, my best friend.

" To be put through paranoia by someone on purpose is just mind-fuck."

My sister never fail to say the right things and give me good advice whenever I pour out my problems to her. No matter how busy she is with uni, she still always has the spare minute to help me out with my work. She understands me and never judges. Sisterly instincts. I love you Vanny Wenny.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Half of my heart.

Opening act - Orianthi (Local band)

John Mayer's voice made me go 'ooolala'. I was too far away from the stage to get all hyped up. All I could see was a fragment of his face. For half the concert me and william were just passing the dslr for the ultra zoom-in to get a clearer view of his face. AND HE DID NOT SING HEART OF LIFE! I think I prefer concerts in Sg. At least the audience sings along. Last night when Mayer asked the audience to sing, all he got was *cricket crickets. That poor fella. Overall, I'd rate this concert a 6/10.
And today was Shaun's 26th. Old and immature. So the guys decided to dress up formally today and tried, I repeat, tried to look as dashing as they could almost possibly be. I must admit that they look smart but the moment I saw Shaun in his tram inspector-ish coat when I walked into their house, I snickered. I didn't want to be disrespectful since he's already gloomy over him being so old. We went to a Greek restaurant for an overpriced and lousy quality meal, evident in the picture about. And the restaurant charged us $35 for serving us the cake that WE BOUGHT. I am so broke now. I used to be a poor student, now I'm a poorer student. It sucks to live in poverty.
I've been slacking quite abit since Week 7 & 8. Time to hit the books and attack the assignments. The interview sucked today btw.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

I eat, I sleep, I put on weight.

In an attempt to save money so that I can use the money saved to shop, I loaded up on groceries that will last me for about 2 weeks. I failed terribly trying to save because I ended up buying so much food with the mindset of how it's going to last me for weeks, resulting in overspending on groceries. Smart, I know. The fish was those frozen-packed kind which took hell long to cook and tasted blah. The beef steak wasn't too bad but cutting it needed a tool way sharper than a knife.
I didn't manage to score an interview with the owner of The Junk Company today but I did set a time with him on tuesday. He doesn't look too friendly thou. Probably because he was in a rush. Hope the interview with him on tuesday goes well.

I get to scream "I love you John!" tmr. ooommgeeeee! :D

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Stop this train.

Zombie shuffle.

Jazz Festival.

At 1pm today, hundred of people dressed up in zombie outfits and strolled down the state library. I tried to look "zombie-ish" to suit the theme of today's event but failed. I was laughing so hard at some of the "zombie's" actions that my eyeliner smudged like crazy. Fail.
Headed to Fed Sq for the third time this week to take a look at the Jazz Festival. Nothing much thou. Stayed for about an hour and took off for ice cream again. Must've been the weather. I am eating more recently. My face looks rounder. Or it's probably what Mel tells me that when you come to Melbourne your face bloats up. I hope that's the case.
So many assignments due in the next 5 weeks & I'm still pretty clueless about each assignment. But for now,