Saturday, January 30, 2010

Just when I'm looking forward to this weekend, I've suddenly come down with a terrible flu plus a whole lot of aches which usually comes before a major illness. It's physically exhausting, this whole thing. And to top it off I have to be up in 7hrs or less to attend this stupid pre-departure thing in Orchard. Who the hell hold seminars at 9.30am on a Saturday! Urg I could just go on complaining...

Thursday, January 28, 2010

The feeling of emptiness is the worst feeling ever. And ocassionally there would be an overwhelming sadness that sinks in and it just makes me feel so fucking depressed. The thought of not being able to depend on someone and not having him there 24/7 feels like a constant stab in the heart. It's funny how I thought that it's going to be easy and how the reality of it starts slapping me in the face and it's really so much harder than I would have ever imagined. Sometimes I very much want to say I take it all back but I know that I should not and will not.
Pain throws your heart to the ground, love turns the whole thing around.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I'd die if I saw you, die if I didn't see you there.

Friday, January 22, 2010

A piece of advice to anyone reading this - Too much of a person can cause one to have the mind of a murderer. I did.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Today's one of those days where I'm like "Fuck, let it pass quickly". I'm just so fucking angsty the whole day and in my mind I keep thinking it must be because of those allegery pills that I took but no, to make things worse, my moses came. Moses = period -Aunty Jo/ Kai ma's term. I got really pissed off in the noon about something, which got me thinking and I've really decided and also made a promise to myself that I will really REALLY study with my whole heart when I'm in Aussie. I don't think I've wasted the time in Mdis/Sim because in everything that I do, I learn something along the way. So my point is, give me 3 years, I'll be back with my degree and prove those who don't believe in me wrong.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Here are some overdue Christmas & KL photos to kick start my entry for today:

roughing it out in KL

Christmas Day
Tis' the season to be jolly

It's exactly 30 more days till I leave for racist land. A place where I'll be fucking judged for my
beautiful skin and given very unfair treatment. PROVE ME WRONG, AUSTRALIA! Seriously man, I cannot begin to describe how I'm feeling about it because right now in my mind I'm just thinking "fuck there's no air-conditioning in the room and its 42 degrees out there".
Okay not just that, there are things that I need to sort out and now I'm facing shit with housing because the receptionist just cannot get my payment right!
All of that aside, I'm finding ways to make full use of the remaining time I have, like catching up with old friends and hanging out with M & like, play L4D 2 ON XBOX! L4D is a sort of escape that I have ( I know there's better things to do like read) and also something I do which does not require spending any monehhh considering how I spent my last penny on my awesome leather shoes from Aldo! Anything leather is worth it. So, judge me. Whatever.
OH! I recently made a huge change in my life. Well at least for 10 years. I finally finally went for the day surgey to get rid of my sinus. At last after 20 years of my life I can breathe like a normal human being which I'm so not used to. Sometimes I find myself breathing thru my mouth and I tell myself to breathe thru my nose. My nostrils have a purpose now.
Hope you (whoever you are) are having a wonderful January so far.


Monday, January 4, 2010

New Year's resolutions,whatt...?
It is not a resolution. This year I aim to be independent, to really for once in my life give it my all for my studies and tahan as many racist gestures that I may possibly receive in Melbourne. Also, to discover melbourne, and learn to take any shit that comes my way.
I'm going to miss sg so damn much esp home (AWWW...) and all the people I know. I will definitely not miss work, but the people at work.
Exactly 41 days till my departure. Big ol' sigh...