At a point where words gets so tangled up i don't know how to undo it, how to fix it and how to feel about it. I don't like feeling helpless. I like knowing what to expect and what to do. I want affirmation of the unforeseeable; as unrealistic as it sounds. I want to say that i've got it all figured out but i can see all the certainties that i used to have slowly diminishing right before my eyes.